Friday 16 September 2022

"Bringing In the Sheaves" - a short story

 





He was afraid of being late. Just the previous wednesday he had come into the Gospel Hall only a few minutes after the start of prayers and the disturbing rustle and loud "tut tuts" still echoed in his mind. One must not keep the Lord waiting.


He passed a man sleeping in a doorway, not giving him much of a glance, and carried on down the sunday morning street, heading for the distant corner. He could see his small group already beginning to congregate, the familiar faces, the microphone already set up. One, Daniel Wollett, unelected leader, was busy with his sign and bible, organising. 


Reaching them he said a few hello's and was greeted. Not really late this time. Mercy. Forgiveness. 






As the group settled down, Wollett placed the sign, a placard, down against the foot of the microphone, it's legend facing the street:

 "Where Will YOU Spend Eternity?" it read.

 Returning to the group, Wollett suggested "How Great Thou Art" as the opening hymn. Each finding the page, and with no accompaniment, they gave voice. A few passers-by looked across but continued on their way. 


The hymn finished, Wollett gathered himself, an ungainly man. He went lumbering forward, resembling a jungle fresh orangutan, arms a-gaggle and rump extended; though more perhaps a latter day Quasimodo, a thick black bible clasped in hand. Reaching the microphone, he gripped it firmly, then immediately pointed down to the sign beneath. 


"Where will you spend eternity" he boomed. Then a calculated pause.


"Yes, my friends, where?" he resumed.


 Friends? One really did have need to wonder. Nevertheless, Wollett continued with his oft repeated sermon.


 "Heaven or hell, there is no other choice!"






Wollett continued with his so well known exhortations.

"Some people say that they won't mind being in hell as all their friends will be there!" 

Here he stopped, to chuckle, to demonstrate that he too had a sense of humour despite all evidence to the contrary. But then, gathering himself:

 "But friendship is a God given gift and hell is where God is not. No, you will have no friends in hell". 

Again he stopped, this time to allow the depth and subtleties of his theology to sink into the minds of his listeners, who by now were reduced to a couple of jeering youths and a stray dog, the rich in spirit having long disappeared up some opportune side alley. 






Some dark clouds had been gathering. The small congregation looked about, perhaps concerned that a deluge might well drive them from the street even as Daniel Wollett concluded his sermon. But the rain held off and Wollett retired back from the microphone, allowing another member to step forward, a younger lad, less assured yet eager to speak. His message was of the imminent return of the Lord "in the air" and of the Rapture when "those who knew Him" would be called forth from the multitudes below to received their due reward. 


 "Those that have the Son shall have life. Those that have not the Son shall not have life" the young man announced.





 Just then, as he said this, the man who had been seen earlier sleeping in the doorway approached the group, staggering slightly, much the worst for drink. As he reached the gospel group he stopped for a moment, lurched, pointed at them, and said: "Bastards"!


 A great host of indrawn breaths, of shocked indignation. The young man at the microphone could do no more than repeat his last line, but now quoting the exact New Testament verse: "He that hath the Son hath life; and he that hath not the Son of God hath not life." Daring disagreement. 


The drunk man lurched slightly then began to move away. But turning at a distance he cried out:

 "We all have the Son!" and then with another accusing cry of "bastards" he staggered slowly away. 

As the gospel group watched him slump down into another doorway further down the street, they regrouped back from the microphone, Wollett with his Bible open, pointing at a verse considered relevant. The current speaker concluded his own message, this coupled with an exhortation to come forward to "accept the Lord", assuring all that it was never too late. Yet few there were who were even listening.



As storm clouds gathered a final hymn was decided upon. In a small semi-circle around the microphone, the group gave voice:


"Sowing in the morning, sowing seeds of kindness......."


 Thunder began to rumble, then an almighty crack. Yet the rain held off. All that then could be heard was the strangled strains of "Bringing In the Sheaves", while the drunken man, who had not long ago sunk down into the nearby doorway, appeared to have moved along. 






Tuesday 13 September 2022

The Burthen of the Mystery








 Tragically I have until now thought Wordsworth and his poetry very much on the boring side. Obviously my heart has often danced with the daffodils but beyond that very little has stirred me. Until recently that is. Almost by chance I happened upon Wordsworth's Ode based upon a visit to the countryside around Tintern Abbey. Much to my surprise I read the poem right through and was almost moved to tears. 






One short passage particularly caught my eye - or ears - or heart. 


Knowing that Nature never did betray
The heart that loved her; 'tis her privilege,
Through all the years of this our life, to lead
From joy to joy: for she can so inform
The mind that is within us, so impress
With quietness and beauty, and so feed
With lofty thoughts, that neither evil tongues,
Rash judgments, nor the sneers of selfish men,
Nor greetings where no kindness is, nor all
The dreary intercourse of daily life,
Shall e'er prevail against us, or disturb
Our cheerful faith, that all which we behold
Is full of blessings.






Certainly the world has been "too much with me" lately. The heart of a bodhisattva is far from me - hell not quite other people, but often close. 







 But moving on from that passage and those thoughts, another few lines from the poem mentioned the "burthen of the mystery" being lightened, this in contemplation of natures beauties. Really, I have not delved that deep into Wordsworth's thoughts and mood as expressed in his Ode to actually claim disagreement. It is simply that I feel no burden (or "burthen") from any "mystery". It is mystery, in the sense of having reached no conclusions, of actually having claimed no answers, that actually seems to offer to me, as gift, a way of approaching and accepting Reality as it unfolds. In a strange way, if there was no "mystery" my heart would be dictated to; by formulas, creeds or custom. The Pure Land myokonin Saichi has exclaimed in his Journal:- 


"Not knowing why! Not knowing why! That is my support! Not knowing why! That is the Namu-Amida-Butsu". 


Such joins with a simple faith, a trust that "all shall be well" no matter what unfolds in any immediate future.






 Anyway, getting back to Wordsworth and his own  words from his poem. He speaks of the "still sad music of humanity" but then of:-



A presence that disturbs me with the joy
Of elevated thoughts; a sense sublime
Of something far more deeply interfused,
Whose dwelling is the light of setting suns,
And the round ocean and the living air,
And the blue sky, and in the mind of man:
A motion and a spirit, that impels
All thinking things, all objects of all thought,
And rolls through all things.





 Good stuff! Maybe best not to crawl and trawl through each and every word looking for seeds of disagreement - better to feel and open to the presence of another human heart contemplating the "burthen of the mystery". To join with them. And sadly, this as a retreat from the mass of people I often feel around me, the barren crowd, the awful pointlessness of so many pursuits, the apparent direction of so many towards aimlessness.

What is the link between "mystery" and "aimlessness". Is there any at all? Something to give thought to.












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